After having a few drinks and trying my best to socialise, I did indeed run into Andy for the first time in years. Surprisingly it went well, I even got an apology. To celebrate my new moving-on-ness I decided to drink more tequila and do some dancing. While dancing I noticed a guy sitting around looking pretty despondent so I grabbed him by the arm and told him to dance with me. This is how I met Kevin...
After we had been together for a couple of months, we moved in together in to a place in Lonehill. Along with my cat Pedro.
In the beginning everything was great and we had tons of fun. There was one night i will always remember, we went to Monte Casino for dinner. Decided to get drunk on champagne in our fancy clothes, gambled for hours and then stayed in one of the hotels even though it was ridiculously expensive. A normal day for us would consist of gaming and tequila. There were good moments.
We went out a lot ~
We danced ...
One thing that we never seemed to be on the same page with was music. The first thing I would do when I got home was to put music, I had a song for every situation and feeling. Eventually after asking many times, Kevin picked "One Headlight" by The Wallflowers as his favourite song. Since we didn't have a song, it became our song. Better than nothing right...?
After living together for about 7 months, his company asked him to move to Cape Town to open up a branch there. We discussed it and 3 months later we had moved.
At this point in our relationship, things had been a bit off for a couple of months already. The affection from his side had definitely decreased and sometimes I wondered if he would've noticed if I disappeared. In a way I hoped that moving there would have helped somehow. It definitely only made things worse. Every single day I felt lonely, neglected and invisible. If I tried to bring it up during the day, he'd say that I was ruining the day, if I brought it up in the evening, I was ruining the night.
Eventually, I brought it up again on our anniversary dinner at a restaurant which is when he decided to quite coldly tell me that he hadn't actually loved me for the past 6 months and that he didn't want to be with me anymore.
When I got "home", I booked a flight and cab and flew home the next morning. He didn't even have the guts to come out of the spare room and say goodbye to me.
That was the second, and hopefully last time I flew back to Joburg from Cape Town with a broken heart.
So long ago, I don't remember when
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun coming up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Saying all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothing left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dying dreams
I think her death it must be killing me
That's when they say I lost my only friend
Well they said she died easy of a broken heart disease
As I listened through the cemetery trees
I seen the sun coming up at the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed such a waste
She always had a pretty face
So I wondered how she hung around this place
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
She said it's cold
It feels like Independence Day
And I can't break away from this parade
But there's got to be an opening
Somewhere here in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
And I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
Saying all there's good and nothingness is dead
We'll run until she's out of breath
She ran until there's nothing left
She hit the end-it's just her window ledge
Hey, come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There's got to be something better than
In the middle
But me and Cinderella
We put it all together
We can drive it home
With one headlight
Well this place is old
It feels just like a beat up truck
I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn
Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn
I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else
Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same
But somewhere here in between the city walls of dying dreams
I think her death it must be killing me
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