Hanging By A Moment (October 2009 - August 2010)

On a warm evening in October 2009 I went to visit a friend of mine. I mentioned to him that I was a lot more aware of what I wanted in a relationship and I was more than ready to find a nice guy, or someone to just have fun with. He looked through his phone to see if you had any young, good guy friends for me, this is how I met Luke.

We ended up going on a date a few nights later. Luke was unlike anyone I had met. He was funny, polite and incredibly handsome. Throughout our relationship I often felt surprised that I had caught such a winner. 

Unfortunately, our relationship was a bit more complicated than most. Luke and another girl had just broken up. He was hurt, I was naive, I ended up being his rebound. Badly. Timing can be a serious bitchy mac-bitch pants.

On Halloween one year, he also drunkenly proposed, which I drunkenly accepted, BAD BAD IDEA to accept a proposal from someone who you've only known for a month and who has just gotten out of a relationship.
Our song was "Hanging By A Moment" By Lifehouse. 

When we broke up, it was probably the worst break up I've been through. It's also when I started doing the usual girly thing of wondering what the hell is wrong with me that I cannot get a guy to just stay with me and love me. 

Not only was there the issue of rebounding with us, but also stories of cheating (not from my side) and ex issues. No need to get in to that side of things. 

It ended pretty badly with Luke and I. I'll never forget sitting in my driveway crying after he drove away.

Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking, completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose, there's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment
I'm hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment here with you