I Won't Be Left

Moving back from Cape Town was a little embarrassing. I don't think anyone really saw it as a possibility, especially me. I was really grateful that no one in my family tried to talk to me about it though. My cat finally arrived after a few days and was much happier in a full size garden compared to the little pot of grass he had on the balcony before.

The balcony did have a great view though...

I was extra lucky when I was asked by a company I had worked for previously to come back and be office manager. Also, my sister had gotten a puppy which didn't hurt... His name is Bastian.

Listening to I won't Be Left by Tegan And Sara helped me to get through the first few post-break up weeks.  

It was great to be back with family and friends and to not feel so alone for a change. After a while everyone stopped looking at me like a wounded puppy and things felt a little more normal. Even though I was sleeping in my niece's room, with pink stuff EVERYWHERE. 

After 2 weeks or so all of my stuff showed up in a big truck. It was all shoved in to the garage and i had a very weird moment standing there looking at everything I owned packed in to boxes again. A lot of my stuff is still packed in boxes in the garage right now. 

Even though I feel like I don't really have a home right now, it really is better to be back surrounded by people who care.

I do miss the sea though...

I Won't Be Left by Tegan and Sara

I won't mistake you for problems with me
I won't let my moods ruin this you'll see
I won't take everything good and move it away
I won't be left dancing along to songs from the past
Would you stay home and keep our memories warm with me
Would you give all your love for a run at the past with me
I know you're sad even though you say that you're not
I know you're scared even though you say that you're not
I won't get mad when you say things are getting too hard
I won't make all of your love so scared to come through our yard
I won't scream in my head and let it isolate me
I won't be left dancing alone to songs from the past